Amy’s Malaysia Adventure, Pt. One

TRAVEL WITH A TWOFOLD MISSION
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Cutest. Airplane. Ever.

Amy here. I am sitting in the Taipei airport on the way to Malaysia. I am excited, nervous, excited. Ramyata, our co-director (a super kick-a** journalist) is meeting me in Kuala Lumpur from Nepal.

Our mission is twofold (though each fold is a bit involved):

ONE: To see Kumar, Shanta’s brother, whom I have not seen for almost three years, and show him Drawing the Tiger (in which he reveals much of his inner thoughts about his sister’s death, his marriage, his parents—you know, basically his life). He is the only one in the family who has not seen the film yet. Ramyata and I will visit the dorms where he stays, two hours out of KL near the factory where he works. We’ll have him watch on a laptop. Then, next weekend, on the 17th, we will all go Kuala Lumpur and screen the film at KLEFF, the Kuala Lumpur Eco Film Festival together.

TWO: To continue to tell Kumar’s migrant labor story. To keep a low profile there, I have a very elegant and tiny video camera kit in a rucksack—the kit is another story, which Scott will fill in in good time.

BUT I DO WORRY
I have woken up the last week leading up to this trip with my stomach in knots. I have had to remind myself to breathe as I prepared.

At the core, I know this is the right thing to be doing—it has been a dream of mine to bring the film to Kumar and have him be a part of sharing it. But all around that core there are so many uncertainties.

For the purpose of transparency and because I believe the subject and documentarian relationship deserves reflection, I am going to lay my worries out here.

Worry 1: What if Kumar doesn’t like the film? What if he feels he was misrepresented? Or, what if it is Just. Too. Much? Painful? Embarrassing?

Worry 2: What if life in KL and his new job is truly horrible for Kumar and I can’t do anything about it? Or, what if I can?

How will I balance my relationship with Kumar as his personal documentarian AND his friend? I want to be present with him and just hang out. I really like him. I am pretty sure he really likes me. I can’t communicate easily with him, but we have this history that has brought us together and underneath the all the words we don’t understand, is a lot of warmth. I worry it will be hard to connect with him in Malaysia from behind the lens.

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Kumar at his old job in Kathmandu

AND YET
At the same time—I feel I would not be doing my job if I did not film him.

Kumar’s story as a Nepali man who has left his country with the hope of relieving his family from their poverty is so common and tragic. At least 1,500 Nepali men leave Kathmandu every day to go to countries like Malaysia, Dubai, Saudi Arabia and the United Arab Emirites after being promised they will make money to send home. Many claim they were deceived and are exploited by their employers. More Nepalis die while working Malaysia more than any other migrant hiring country.

Ramyata feels migrant labor is one of the biggest things effecting her country today, and with Kumar, we have this intimate, long-term angle from which to tell this story that seems so far to be told on a surface level. So we are taking it all the way with the goal of making a video piece or pieces that will create awareness around the social and emotional costs of migrant labor as well as fuel the migrant labor activist movement. (There is one. I am going to learn more about it this week.)

I don’t know to what degree Kumar understands what we are trying to do or what he thinks it means. I asked him way back in 2011 via Ramyata if he thought our film would help anyone. He said, “I doubt it,” and laughed a little.

This is when I wished I was a dentist and worked for Dentists Without Borders. Teeth are a no brainer compared to stories. Not a lot of moral ambituity in dentistry; we all need to chew. But dental hygiene does not interest me the way us humans do.

Worry 3: What if my new video camera setup fails me? What if I produce crappy footage, or nice footage with bad sound?

Worry 4: What if jetlag makes me inept?

Worry 5: What if Malaysians don’t like Drawing the Tiger? Or, worse, what if people show pity for Kumar after the screening? I think that will make me uncomfortable and him as well. It is not why we made the film.

Worry 6: What if I get sick? Like pukey sick?

Worry 7 (actually not a worry, just a bummer): I am really going to miss our son. He said to me as I put him to bed tonight, “Mommy, when are you going to get a job that doesn’t make you go away so much?”

WELL, THAT’S ABOUT IT FOR THE WORRIES
At least, I think those are all of them. All my big fears. Splayed out.

Now, I am going to say how thrilled I am to be doing this! I can’t wait to see Kumar. I adore him. And, how thrilled to be working with Ramyata.

The last line of Drawing the Tiger, Kumar says, “Let’s see what happens now….”

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7 Comments

  1. Mike O'Brien
    October 12, 2015

    Amy, those are the practical worries of a well-prepared storyteller. We look forward to hearing about your actual experience, too.

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  2. Neeta shrestha
    October 12, 2015

    Good you have so many worries…means you are better prepared then me…I am also worried about what will be next..but I have faith in life and know all will be what is to be…hope you get to have some fun times too with Ramyata and Kumar!

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  3. Suzanne Grenager
    October 12, 2015

    Amy, your courage and commitment are beyond inspiring. And I love that you dare to share your fears with us. I am thrilled for you – and glad for the larger world – that you are taking what you keep learning about Nepal to the next, logical level. You are filmmaker, so it is, of course, perfect that you will be filming Kumar and his new world. It is a fascinating and important story you will be telling, Trond and I can’t wait to hear more!

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  4. Emily
    October 12, 2015

    You are so great. You have a human touch that doesn’t fail or quit. I love following along. Xoxo

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  5. Mary Ann Woodruff
    October 12, 2015

    Amy, I continue to be inspired and impressed with your work. Your honesty, shared with us your fans here, is probably what makes you such a great storyteller. Your vulnerability and professionalism will both serve you well when you meet Kumar again. I send my love to accompany you.

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  6. Joe Paul Slaby
    October 13, 2015

    You’re doing important work and you do it well. Enjoy the people you meet!

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  7. HARRY BISTA
    October 19, 2015

    Amy,good job.proud to see u.good luck.

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