The New Year, A New Chapter for Drawing the Tiger

Happy Happy New Year! Despite our personal filmmaking roller coaster angst (see below) and the heart-sinking chaos of the world, I believe 2015 is going to surprise us with its LOVE and ABUNDANCE. This world has an amazing capacity for both.

2014 was a big year. Like, HUGE! We finished the film (okay, all but music, sound, color and graphics)—and I can’t quite explain how excited we are about it. Excited is not the word right word. Ecstatic? Impatient? Swirly-headed?

What we have now is not only the story we wanted to tell—beautiful, nuanced, and with integrity, but the process of making it was better than we could have imagined. Working with our team was magical. I use the world ‘magical‘ because it was really like that. Even when we disagreed—about a translation, or a cut—it was this powerful, respectful, creative back-and-forth that fueled this thing that is a film now. Scott, Kristin and I never felt alone. Our team cares about this project so deeply and put themselves into it. We feel blessed to have had this experience—this magical year of making collaborative art with this story we believe in with our whole selves.

And right now, to be perfectly honest… I miss that creative process. A LOT. I am homesick for it. I can’t take our storyboard down even though we are ‘picture locked’. I miss our team and our routines—the long, long phone calls with Fiona going through lists of editing challenges…. whether or not the lost goat scene fits or not. (I can’t wait for ya’ll to see the lost goat scene. It did make it in!) The sitting for hours with Neeta, Shraddha, Ramona and Anzeela, dissecting language, its meaning, and examing our relationship with this family, The Darnals.

Kristin, Scott and I and our coffee/sake powered epic tag team grantwriting/editing nights—Jimmy fixing the most complicated computer problems from across the world. If we had filmed and edited the production of Drawing the Tiger and put it to 80’s music, it would make a heckuva a feel-good montage!

(Dang. We totally should have done that.)

And then…, things got hard. I mean, the making of the film was really hard. Don’t get me wrong. I am still recovering from that, but now? Now it is a new kind of hard.

After the last post I wrote in September, after we finished (for the most part) the editing of the film and returned from Camden where we pitched Drawing the Tiger to some industry folks, I felt sad. Really bummed out. Fiona suggested it might be post-partum depression.

I think that is a good analogy. The ‘baby’ has been birthed and now it is time to put it out into the world. It is an extremely vulnerable feeling.

We have been submitting the fine cut to festivals, broadcasters, funders and waiting to hear back.

I actually had a dream where I arrived to my middle school without clothes. That is how raw this feels. Like being an insecure, naked teenager.

But at the same time, we feel alive. We have something special. We have a story that has not been told yet—the story of a family grappling with the complexities of western development. It is not typical. It does not have the formula where the main character has an obstacle, and despite all the challenges overcomes the adversity and wins the day. Originally, we thought we had that story, but that film was not to be.

However, I believe Drawing the Tiger actually offers a different kind of inspiration—one that really sticks with us. One that brings us to not just an understanding, but to a feeling of just how close we all are on this planet—how much we deeply have in common.

The next chapter… Kristin, our associate producer and I, head off to New York City and San Francisco today to show the film to folks who can help us secure finishing funds, get it into an awesome festival with lots of exposure, and onto television. (Scott will be home haveing dude adventures our dear son, Hale.)

Picture Kristin and me in the skipping down the middle of Times Square to the Laverne and Shirley theme:

Get on your marks, get set and go now
Got a dream and we just know now,
We’re gonna make our dream come true.
And we’ll do it our way, yes our way.
Make all our dreams come true,
For me and YOU….
(That is the BIG WORLD YOU, that includes YOU too!)

Thank you for all your love and support in 2014!

You’ll be hearing more from us soon.


Amy, Scott & Kristin









  1. Leah
    January 5, 2015

    Go get ’em in NY – and don’t forget to celebrate the big AND small things every day. We are rooting for you!

    • squire
      January 5, 2015

      Thank you Leah! You guys too, same-same!

  2. Carol
    January 5, 2015

    Amy, holding you close in my heart today & all through the week. Have at ’em in your smart new togs & beautiful, creativity-laden red head. xo Carol

  3. Mary Ann Woodruff
    January 6, 2015

    Amy, I feel like I am skipping across Times Square with you. Best of luck as you pitch this wonderful story and hopefully come home with some more help with making it a reality. Love you lots,
    Mary Ann

  4. Jennifer Townsend
    January 6, 2015

    I love hearing your news. Sending blessings and wishes for wonderful surprises in this new year. You and Scott and your team deserve the best.

  5. Paul Fischburg
    January 6, 2015

    Amy, you keep astounding me with your honesty – your willingness and ability to bring us with you on this crazy important journey. Keep going, we’re all behind you!

  6. Suzanne Grenager
    March 11, 2015

    Wow, Amy! If you film-make as beautifully as you write, your movie, and the passion that drives it, is going to blow them out of the proverbial water. You wrote: “I believe Drawing the Tiger actually offers a different kind of inspiration—one that really sticks with us. One that brings us to not just an understanding, but to a feeling of just how close we all are on this planet—how much we deeply have in common.” Amen! Any venture that awakens the deep, abiding connection — the net that holds the members of our human family — deserves the attention I am now sure your film is going to get.


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